Another milestone, Another Annieversary!
For those of you that have been reading my blogs, THANK YOU! I am your overthinking, multi-tasking, sweet tooth loving badass baker. I write how I think. Those of you that can follow my sometimes random thoughts and jumbles…yay for you!
May 20th is a weird Anniversary for me. It was the day I walked out of my full time pastry chef job at the Cleveland Museum of Art. I had burned out, lost my passion and my ways and needed out ASAP! I submitted my 2 weeks notice and the days got harder, longer and I had run out of passion and love for my job. I was being treated horribly and after begging for help and not receiving it, I did what I had to do. I needed to leave and I did. I went in, gathered my things and gave my badge back to security and I left. I left the way I needed to but it still is a weird memory even 3 years later.
Fun fact: the day I walked out of the museum, I came home to a phone call from a nun placing an order for 1200 desserts:)
My anxiety was through the roof after leaving, I was a hot mess to say the least. HOT MESS EXPRESS!!!!
I have no regrets with how things happened because they have led me to where I am today. I am more confident in my craft as a food artist and I am confident in my passion and love for everything pastry. I did not leave to start a business, nor did I know what would happened over the next few months more or less a few years.
The time that I gave myself to clear my head, talk to my therapist and take the mysterious path ahead was beyond necessary. I started to realize that I had not lost my passion for pastries, THANK YOU:) I had burned out and did not leave myself any air or downtime. I would constantly be working and I was sooo over everything.
It was a day of anxiety, tears, confusion, frustration, anger, sadness and the end of a decade in the restaurant/private club sector. I am going to put those feelings away about that day and celebrate it in a more positive way.
I am where I am today because I gave myself time to reset that was way overdue. I started to pay more attention to my life, the people that I surround myself with and embrace the opportunities that lie ahead.
There are people that have stuck with me from the beginning, strangers from the internet that have become close friends and an amazing support system and there are always going to be people that don’t understand why I do what I do. At the end of the day, It is my choice and I know it is the best thing for me.
There will always be different levels of emotion on this roller coaster ride. I feel like I can finally be HAPPY where I am now in my life. I am always beyond grateful to get to know each of you and I am always open to tell you anything you want about my 3 year ride so far.
I see you future! I am ready for you:)
Have an amazing week! I hope to see you all soon.